How perfectly appropriate that this site was dead in the water for the months of July, August, September and most of October, since this was the time when I was finishing up the brutal seven month stint of attempting to work 3000 miles from where I lived, and commuting across the country on a weekly basis, or as much as I could, to hold the family and my life more or less together.  At that time I was about as alive as the site was, and it was only this evening when I turned my attention to it, only to find it pretty much gone.  I did manage to get it back, though, after wrestling with the WordPress version and various file permissions.

And how ephemeral our web presences are.  If I typed “Owen Scott” into a browser, this site would actually come up first, sometimes, and always on the first page. Now, of course, it’s gone completely from their various databases.  This happened with House of Pilates a couple of times, but on a much smaller scale, since that site was down for just a few days, and the listing on Google and elsewhere popped back to it’s spot within a week or so of being back, but being gone for months … probably a transgression that is unforgivable.  Which is probably just as well.

I wish I could say that I myself were back to where I would like to be, although I am still clearly in recovery mode.  I have noticed that when describing the narrative of the last eight months or so, if I substitute the word “work” with “heroin” or “crack”, the sentences make the same sense.  I am, however, a binge-worker in recovery.  I suppose I need to learn a little about addiction to try to find a healthier relationship with work.  Right now I am having a very difficult time finding the energy that drove me to work like I did — and that is not the kind of energy I should be finding, since it clearly is not healthy, no matter how productive it is.

Anyway, I do have news — though no time at the moment to write it up … will do so in the next post…